Sedihnya… Kalau teringat (which I am doing right now in order to write about it), rasa macam nak nangis. Seksyen 8 was without water last Monday due to a burst pipe so the family came over to the house for mandi.
I was upstairs, nursing my head and minding my sick husband, all the while watching all 4 Die Hards (I love Die Hard). What a multi-tasker, me. Anyway, Mum and Wan left the house after bathing. Anna and Esya predictably decided to stay over.
I heard cryings (plural okay..) and not wishing to wake hubby from his pain-free slumber with the ruckus, decided to investigate. In the kitchen found a sobbing Anna and a wailing Elsa.
Gathered Anna in my arms (being the youngest) and asked her what seems to be the problem.
“Anna nak balik….” Hiccuping all the way.
“Kenapa ?”
“Cookies dah habis… Titi marah Anna….”
I took her outside and calmed her as much as I can. Showed her the frog on the pavement (Ya Allah… help me….), jiggled her on my hips and promised her that I will buy 10 packets of Chip Ahoy for her and her alone. Handed her to my Maksu and searched for my daughter.
Sedih hati aku dengar dia nak balik. Tersedu-sedu menangis punya sedih. Pasal cookies je ?
“Kenapa Titi marah Anna makan cookies ? That is not nice…. Orang dah makan sudah lah… Blah, blah, blah…”
“Bukan .. ! “Protested my daughter tearfully. “I am not angry with her ! Tapi cookies dah habis….pastu… waaa Esya… waaa….. friend…..”
Laa… Cookies kan sekejap ada sekejap takde, so memang sifatnya yang senang habis Beli je lah lagi nanti … Macam seumur hidup tak pernah makan.… Apa hal lak ngan Esya ? I was bloody irritated with my daughter. Takkan pasal tu nak marah Anna ? Tried to get the story straight since she kept protesting that she wasn’t angry at Anna but couldn’t understand her under all the tears and acute distress.
Called Umar.
“Bukan… Macam ni kan...” He started importantly, eyes huge, finger up.
“Cookies habis kan sebab Esya, Anna and Faris makan kan…Pastu Titi turun kan and she got upset kan sebab cookies habis kan .. Pastu dia nangis kan pastu Esya kata dia tak nak kawan dengan Titi kan… So that is why she cried…”
Errr… What does that got to do with Anna ? When did she enter the picture apart from her participation in polishing off all the cookies ?
“Ohh… Anna takut Mummy marah sebab habiskan cookies. Sebab tu dia nak balik… He he… I think she wants to run away….Ha ha….” Was the explanation from Um.
Jatuh merundum hati ini when I heard that. Sedihnya bukan kepalang. Did she really think I will get mad at her for eating the cookies ? My baby …. My baby….
I took her in my arms again and told her that I love her so much it hurts. We bowed our heads together and I cried too because … well… I wouldn’t love her less would I ? How could I ? How can I ? Because of cookies ? Because of my daughter’s tears for the long gone cookies ?
My sadness was tremendous I think because she thought that she has no standing in my heart. She doesn’t feel secure and safe with me. I felt like a failure.
I hid upstairs and wept and wept and wept.
Then I called my mum. Mum said, “Laa… Anna kan memang macam tu. If bukan dia punya, dia akan tanya..Boleh minum tak ? She will always ask Boleh habis kan, tak ? berkali-kali. Kalau kita kata tak boleh habiskan, she won’t. Anna memang macam tu. She will ask permission punya.. “
Laa…. Ye ke… patut le… When I think about it, what my mum said is true. She will always ask, “Ini Anna punya ke ?” baru dia start makan. If she wants anything she will ask sapa punya dulu, and then ask pulak boleh tak dia makan… Berkali-kali tanya tu sebelum dia makan…
So all that drama ? Sebab Mummy tak pikir… keh keh…. Tapi sedih… Sedih, okay.
Pastu aku teringat satu cerita Anna dengan Tok Yah nya. She found my dad eating sweets and asked, “Tok makan apa ?”
“Weet (sweet) Tok jumpa ni…” Answered my dad, showing her the sweets.
Her face was horrified when she saw what was in Tok’s hand. “Tok ! Itu Anna punya ! Tok makan weet Anna !!” Bapak aku punya kelam kabut masukkan balik sweets tu dalam packagingnya balik, bagi kat cucu yang dok bercekak pinggang depan dia. “Laa ye ke…. Tok nak sikit je…. Okay, okay nanti Tok ganti balik….”
You see, if she has to ask for permission, we must darn well, too !. He he…
I was upstairs, nursing my head and minding my sick husband, all the while watching all 4 Die Hards (I love Die Hard). What a multi-tasker, me. Anyway, Mum and Wan left the house after bathing. Anna and Esya predictably decided to stay over.
I heard cryings (plural okay..) and not wishing to wake hubby from his pain-free slumber with the ruckus, decided to investigate. In the kitchen found a sobbing Anna and a wailing Elsa.
Gathered Anna in my arms (being the youngest) and asked her what seems to be the problem.
“Anna nak balik….” Hiccuping all the way.
“Kenapa ?”
“Cookies dah habis… Titi marah Anna….”
I took her outside and calmed her as much as I can. Showed her the frog on the pavement (Ya Allah… help me….), jiggled her on my hips and promised her that I will buy 10 packets of Chip Ahoy for her and her alone. Handed her to my Maksu and searched for my daughter.
Sedih hati aku dengar dia nak balik. Tersedu-sedu menangis punya sedih. Pasal cookies je ?
“Kenapa Titi marah Anna makan cookies ? That is not nice…. Orang dah makan sudah lah… Blah, blah, blah…”
“Bukan .. ! “Protested my daughter tearfully. “I am not angry with her ! Tapi cookies dah habis….pastu… waaa Esya… waaa….. friend…..”
Laa… Cookies kan sekejap ada sekejap takde, so memang sifatnya yang senang habis Beli je lah lagi nanti … Macam seumur hidup tak pernah makan.… Apa hal lak ngan Esya ? I was bloody irritated with my daughter. Takkan pasal tu nak marah Anna ? Tried to get the story straight since she kept protesting that she wasn’t angry at Anna but couldn’t understand her under all the tears and acute distress.
Called Umar.
“Bukan… Macam ni kan...” He started importantly, eyes huge, finger up.
“Cookies habis kan sebab Esya, Anna and Faris makan kan…Pastu Titi turun kan and she got upset kan sebab cookies habis kan .. Pastu dia nangis kan pastu Esya kata dia tak nak kawan dengan Titi kan… So that is why she cried…”
Errr… What does that got to do with Anna ? When did she enter the picture apart from her participation in polishing off all the cookies ?
“Ohh… Anna takut Mummy marah sebab habiskan cookies. Sebab tu dia nak balik… He he… I think she wants to run away….Ha ha….” Was the explanation from Um.
Jatuh merundum hati ini when I heard that. Sedihnya bukan kepalang. Did she really think I will get mad at her for eating the cookies ? My baby …. My baby….
I took her in my arms again and told her that I love her so much it hurts. We bowed our heads together and I cried too because … well… I wouldn’t love her less would I ? How could I ? How can I ? Because of cookies ? Because of my daughter’s tears for the long gone cookies ?
My sadness was tremendous I think because she thought that she has no standing in my heart. She doesn’t feel secure and safe with me. I felt like a failure.
I hid upstairs and wept and wept and wept.
Then I called my mum. Mum said, “Laa… Anna kan memang macam tu. If bukan dia punya, dia akan tanya..Boleh minum tak ? She will always ask Boleh habis kan, tak ? berkali-kali. Kalau kita kata tak boleh habiskan, she won’t. Anna memang macam tu. She will ask permission punya.. “
Laa…. Ye ke… patut le… When I think about it, what my mum said is true. She will always ask, “Ini Anna punya ke ?” baru dia start makan. If she wants anything she will ask sapa punya dulu, and then ask pulak boleh tak dia makan… Berkali-kali tanya tu sebelum dia makan…
So all that drama ? Sebab Mummy tak pikir… keh keh…. Tapi sedih… Sedih, okay.
Pastu aku teringat satu cerita Anna dengan Tok Yah nya. She found my dad eating sweets and asked, “Tok makan apa ?”
“Weet (sweet) Tok jumpa ni…” Answered my dad, showing her the sweets.
Her face was horrified when she saw what was in Tok’s hand. “Tok ! Itu Anna punya ! Tok makan weet Anna !!” Bapak aku punya kelam kabut masukkan balik sweets tu dalam packagingnya balik, bagi kat cucu yang dok bercekak pinggang depan dia. “Laa ye ke…. Tok nak sikit je…. Okay, okay nanti Tok ganti balik….”
You see, if she has to ask for permission, we must darn well, too !. He he…
4 comments:
Myra, you're such a dear person. Your children are lucky to get you as a mom and Esya and Anna are lucky to have you as their caring aunt. Knowing that the 2 girls are well loved and taken care almost made me close to tears. Hugs and Kisses to the girls. It's sad to know that my children and the girls were once close. However they are in good hands. I'm glad. Syukur pada Allah.
Ha ha...aku macam Anna, duit sekupang pun kalau aku punya tetap aku punya jugak... sapa nak kena ask permission dulu...haha.
Thank you, Kak Puteri... I am trying my best...
I am sorry I didn't know ur kids used to socialise with them before. Why should they stop ? They have to meet again !!
Ya... I will remember that sebab kalau hang nangis, aku tak leh dukung.... ha ha
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